This morning at about 9:00 am was officially Solstice, but we are celebrating tonight by burning a Yule log outside. It was also suggested to burn prayers along with the Yule log. Apparently I had a lot to say, because it took up 6 pages in a smallish notebook that I had. I thought what I had to say might be interesting to reflect on at a later date, so I am immortalizing it here.
I give thanks for:
- A roof over our heads,
- Food on our table,
- Clothes on our backs, and
- Shoes on our feet.
I am grateful for:
- The presence of the gods in my life.
- The guidance of Cerridwen and Morrigan; their love and support; the direction they give me.
- The insight I am blessed to have that shows me what I need to do, in not always when.
I would be lost without the love of my children.
In the last year I have completed three terms of college courses, maintaining a 4.0 GPA. In this, I feel inspired by Cerridwen – keeper of the Cauldron of Knowledge – and I will strive to, in the new year, continue to maintain my GPA.
Also, in the past year, I have correctly determined the genders of at least two babies born to my family. Thank you Morrigan.
We also lost Mahala, before we had a chance to know her. She is missed and always will be.
Ancestors, Goddesses – I ask you to continue to watch over my family, both near and far, and help them see their paths clearly. Keep us all safe from evil influence. Help us see right from wrong. Help us all find one good thing to do each day. Help us find happiness in what we already have instead of bitterness and jealousy for what we don’t have. We may not have much money, but we are rich in love.
Goddesses – help me understand my marital situation. Open my heart so that maybe I can find within myself the capacity to love Shoné in some way. Help me to not resent him any more. Help me find the strength of mind and soul to leave him and file for divorce.
Help me find employment that will work with my school situation. Help me figure out how to support my family, with or without Shoné.
Help me figure out what to do in regards to my degree as well as a career once I have a degree. Help me realize my dream of a yarn shop of my own, or see that another path will suit me better.
Help me find within myself the confidence to be on my own, to live MY life, MY way, and to not be afraid of what ANYONE else thinks. Help me find myself.
Help me come back to, not only daily worship, but worship of the full moon every month as well as Sabbats and Cross-Quarter Sabbats. Or help me understand new or other ways to worship and praise.
As the year draws to a close, and we begin to see the return of the sun to the heavens above the earth, our Mother, help me return to my worship. Help me connect with the Mother and all of her children and the creatures and plants living on her.
Help me find peace within myself.
So Mote it Be